How was your Thanksgiving holiday? I spent the day quietly in my apartment and then ventured out to Cracker Barrel for dinner. I even went to Target in hopes that I could pick up 2 more of those wonderful tees in red and white that I wore in my last post here on the blog. Can someone tell me why folks buy more than one 72” screen tele? I mean how much tv does one really watch?! And how HUGE does the screen need to be?!?! Does that mean you stop going to the movie if your tv is supersized, lolol?! But I digress. Needless to say that didn’t go as planned so I came home and crawled into bed with a magazine.
Best part of my Turkey day was getting up at 7 and meeting my sorority sisters to volunteer at the Keith Straghn Foundation Feed the Needy Thanksgiving Day dinner. There’s no better cure for the negative that ails me than serving others and being reminded of how much my son and I have to be grateful for. Another positive is I added 2 miles to my walking game. I’ve been doing 4 miles for quite some time. It was time to challenge myself to more and I really needed to fight the lonely demon that was chasing me! Y’all do know I’m neither alone or lonely right? LIES, I tell ya, LIES! So I put on my sneakers, workout clothes and hit the park. Pandora gave me a fairly decent Boys II Menz Christmas playlist and made some strides for about 2 hours. I left the park feeling better physically and emotionally.
If you are thinking why I was alone, well…the kid flew to be with his father on Wednesday. Due to some transportation issues I’m unable to travel in my car. I could have rented a vehicle but I figured it would set me back financially form getting the EXPENSIVE repairs I need. Your probably also thinking that I appear to have a large circle of friends and networks so why didn’t I just spend the day with someone else’s family. I did have multiple invites to share a meal with others. It’s really weird but the only thing I can tell you is I didn’t feel like it. I wanted my family. My mom. Siblings. Extended family. I haven’t seen them in a year. So the plan is to get my car repaired and get back to my road trips home. Nothing like a country life to refresh me. Birds chirping. Pecan trees, not palm. No planes. Zero traffic. Can you tell I’m homesick?
Yeah after I paid the last car note installment, the Incredible Hulk (I drive a green SUV) decided it needed major work. Until educators get paid like the ballers we are, I won’t be purchasing anything new for a minute. Gotta give back to the government and make sure FedLoan gets that lump sum out my check. #FixItJesus So I survived Thanksgiving Day. I did battle a few moments of feeling low and sad. My mom called twice and I just didn’t want to ruin her day so I acted all perky and fine on the phone. When I was leaving dinner, an older lady told me I needed something to cover my arms from the chill in the air. It was something my Granny would say so when I got to my truck I had to talk myself back from a teary breakdown.
I shared all that to say reach out to single parents and people during the holidays. Y’all know the suicide rate goes up. It’s a time when the enemy of our joy will try and bring us so low that we feel unloved and uncared for. Some of us will isolate ourselves from the very people who are concerned about our well-being. I’m so grateful that I know the truth about myself and journey. It ain’t always easy but if the lessons I’ve learned can help someone else keep the faith and keep pushing forward then I am living my life with purpose.