I've been trying to get around to blogging but my life just won't slow down long enough for me to pose for a few photos or write good content because I'm exhausted when I get home. I sit on the couch and exhale, shower and go to sleep.
I've got the single super mom cape on and I wanna take it off! There are times, I just wish for days off. #youcanjudgeme I've mentioned before KT is in the band this year. He's a sophmore at the high school where I'm now working as well as involved in numerous community service driven/mentoring activities. We don't do everything but we do enough to have us falling into bed after homework is complete.
Being at a new school this academic year that's high needs requires me to work a lot harder than I did my last few years. There's new standardized testing expectations, common core standards and kids who need me to assist them in meeting old testing mandates to graduate! In addition, I'm a band parent. This means I show up at every game, competition and now parade season. Can't give to other people's kid what I don't give to my own. Right?!?!?!?
At the end of the week, I don't want to do anything but pretend to catch up on sleep because I still have church and other commitments. Believe it or not, I've scaled wayyyyy back on my personal activities. There's no real justification for running myself into the ground where I am no good for parenting, teaching and enjoying life. I refuse to make myself sick. #bewarealowdownsingleparent
This Saturday I spoke at a parenting conference. One of the questions I was asked in the session was, what is the hardest part of being a single parent. That day I said not being able to teach my son how to be a man. Today I say, having to give so much of myself with no help. I can't recall if I've felt this way before. Maybe when he was younger and needed me more but he's 15 and I swear he controls my calendar. #waitingonmyROI
I also don't think having a partner, mate or boyfriend is a TOTAL FIX IT cure. I just need to work on balancing more so I can get back to my blog, reading for pleasure, working out more than once or twice a week and road trips.
So to those moms and dad's who maybe frustrated and weary. I feel yoy! Yes indeed!! God didn't intend for parenting to be solo. As I shared Saturday, it doesn't matter how your family came to be one without two parents...it just is. Make the best of it. Do what you can. Plan. Plan. Plan. Make breakfast at night if you must. Cereal and sandwiches are considered meals.
I'm praying for you. For us that we not get weary in well doing for our children. They are our ministry. Not a spouse. At least not now. I'm counting down my 2.5 years before Stella gets her groove back. #ratchetbehaviorforthcoming #kidding The best you can give your child(ren) is love, time and being present in the moment.
God sees our journey, Amen.